So here we are. In vitro round two. Also known as in vitro last round. This is it. Yet... it doesn't feel final. There is nothing quite like an in vitro cycle for keeping you in the moment. Seriously. It's hard to think ahead and plan when you're caught up in a whirlwind of appointments and injections and craziness. It's all about what's going on right now, not what might happen in a few weeks.
Gonna put this out there and say it. I feel good this time. Much, much better than last time. I think it's going to work this time. Seriously.
It's already going better than the last round. Eggs are doing their thing and it's not a race. Everyone's playing this time, it's not just one egg determined to cross the finish line long before the others. It's awesome go to an ultrasound and see lots of eggs vying for the lead, but no clear cut winner.
It's hard to explain the emotions of an in vitro cycle to someone who's never lived it. Trying to get pregnant is like a roller coaster. Every month has the same ups and downs. In vitro is like that cycle gone bi-polar. The ups are higher, the crash is worse. Somehow I am not as up as I was last time. I remember being almost giddy. Perhaps it was the newness, the excitement. This time I just... am. Hope that's enough.
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